Faith

Sometimes life can seem so overtaking. It's rough. It's not fair. It pushes you down when you do not feel like getting back up. Sometimes it will be one thing after another. Pushing you down and kicking you while you're laying there. Well... I have learned in the past to push on through. Even though I did it while hiding my emotions. Not letting anyone see how I was feeling. I was basically being a mask showing no emotion whatsoever. It is hard to beleive that now.... I'm learning that being strong isn't holding up and being a "man" about things. It isn't keeping tears from your eyes. It isn't faking it for others. Being strong.... is showing others that you do have emotions, but you have hope... faith. Faith.... God has really been digging into me lately with this. I have trusted Him with everything I had, well I thought so atleast. I'm learning that I truly need to show I have faith that... not exactly that God will do what I want Him to do, but that God will do what's best for me. I have to understand this. It's hard putting what I want to happen aside. I'm finally learning the true meaning of faith. God is building my faith through this storm I'm in right now. God has my praise through this. I want His will to come out of this situation I'm in. I love you God.... I have my faith put in you.